<3 hehe.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON RAMSEY!!!



Isn't he so fucking handsome!
Today he turns 18! Oh yeah! Haha.

seen and heard

Sooooo......
this week's episode of Gossip Girl was the shiznit!
it was soooooo good,
and sad,
and just awwww......

Seriously if you haven't watched it yet,
shame on you!
go watch it now!

Best episode EVER!
I might've shed some tears,
SOME.

Owh and no more Grey's until January,
how nice,
they must've known that I won't be able to watch if it continued during the holidays,
haha!

I have my last final on Monday,
and I don't have a textbook to study,
can you say screwed?

birthdays galore!

December is THE best month EVER!
its got chrissy,
boxing day,
my birthday,
and holiday! (for some people),
awesome huh.

Speaking of birthdays,
many many birthdays happened this month already,
there was mine,
my cousin's,
Samer's,
Azri's sister Shaza's,
Rianne's,
and today is Ryan's and Wolf's birthday!

Plus more birthdays to come next week and the following week too,
so December is one busy birthday month. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN!!
-- See you soon! I know I keep saying that.......Its been years since I saw you. When I get out of this country I'll see you in Austin. Have an awesome day dude.

trick or treat?

OK so I'm sure all of you know who Leona Lewis is,
and that she won the reality show X Factor two years ago,
I was actually in London to watch her win on tv,
which was cool.

Anyway so this year,
its time for the finale of the latest season,
and one of the contestants is really.....uhh....unique?
I'll let you decide for youselves. =)

I present to you......Eoghan Quigg!!


-- Sometimes by Britney Spears (it was Britney week haha)


-- Year 3000 by Busted


-- Imagine by John Lennon

Soooooo......what do you think?
I think he's kinda retarded,
but I can't seem to hate him,
He's just too cute,
haha. =)

playback

So apparently I haven't blogged since Tuesday,
tsk tsk,
anyway so my presentation was good,
nothing else to say really,
and then Wednesday was the last day of classes,
so now only finals left,
also I finished my last assignment,
phew!

Next,
my daddy came back from Tehran on Thursday,
and did what my brothers couldn't do,
which is fix the wifi so now I have internet,
awesome isnt it.

So I've been catching up on all the shows I've missed,
like Heroes,
Gossip Girl,
House,
and Grey's Anatomy.

Heroes was good,
Seth Green and Breckin Meyer were guest stars,
they're so funny,
plus the eclipse happened,
very strange that eclipse thing.

Gossip Girl was more like a filler,
it was the Snowflake Ball (whatever haha),
I think Serena and Dan still like each other,
Nate and Vanessa kinda made me gag,
them together bothers me a little,
little J is a brat as usual,
Chuck and Blair are the shiznit,
they are so good together,
best characters in GG,
plus Nastia Liukin was a guest star,
she's really pretty.

House was funny,
as always,
the cases were interesting,
i really hate his team though,
they're just not as witty and tough like the old one,
they're like too easy to bully.

Grey's was awesome,
as per usual,
Dr. Dickson sucks though,
I know she has that condition thing,
but she's sooooo rude,
I know she can't help it,
she's just not able to feel compassion or whatever,
the two sisters made me cry,
and the woman who got her voice back was nice,
she blogs too,
but still,
Izzie is just weird,
talking to invisible Denny,
I honestly don't even know why he's still there,
hes dead!
it was cute at first,
now its just dumb,
I mean she's having all that 'self-love',
even though to her its the real thing,
with a dead person to boot,
I'll take psycho bimbo for $50!

Arsenal won this week,
yay!
almost lost to Wigan,
Eboue had an awful game,
serves him right,
I felt sorry for him for like a second,
then I realised he needs a swift kick in the ass,
the fans and Wenger definitely gave him that,
plus three points was more important at the time,
hopes he becomes better though,
Ramsey and Wilshere didn't play. =(

Also had a BBQ just now,
for my mommy's collegue who's moving back to Aussie land,
good food,
yum!

Wow that was long,
anyway that is all,
I need to 'study' now. =)

hahahahaaaa......

David Cook's reaction to the screaming psycho girls video. Its around the 3:30 mark (in case you don't want to watch the whole thing). =)

wishes and fishes

Happy birthday to me! Thanks for the 2 goals RvP! WoohoO!

1, 2, 3, 4

Soooooo......

Firstly,
my hse hates me,
it took away my wifi,
so no internet at home for me,
i hate it,
it sucks,
plus i can't use the home computer,
cause the fatties just bought a new game,
FM 2009,
so no chance of using the comp now.

Secondly,
went to watch Twilight this morning,
was good,
not great,
but good,
that girl Kristen Stewart,
sucks,
bad,
hated her character,
it was like a fly that refused to go away,
made me want to gag,
plus her voice was sooooo dead,
which is weird since she's not.....dead,
like the vampires,
other than that it was good.

Thirdly,
i have class tomorrow,
but i lazy to go,
but its like a nice class,
very interesting,
but loooong,
3 hours,
zzzzzzzzzzzz.

Fourthly,
my bday is on Monday!
woo-hoo!
but i'm like super busy,
since the following week got finals,
which suck,
soooooo gotta plan something quick,
if not then its all a no go,
ugh!
i hate my life right now,
boo you life!

ow ow ow

My head hurts,
real bad,
I hate headaches,
pain,
sooooo much pain,
my head feels like its under some bricks or something.

Guess if I wake up tomorrow,
and still have this pounding headache,
I'm gonna just skip class,
who needs a lecture on Intelligence right.

Pfft! Boo headaches!

lie

You whispered that you were getting tired,
Got a look in your eye,
Looks a lot like goodbye,
Hold on to your secrets tonight,
Don’t want to know,
I’m ok with this silence,
It’s truth that I don’t want to hear,

You’re hiding regret in your smile,
There’s a storm in your eyes I’ve seen coming for a while,
Hang on to the past tense tonight,
Don’t say a word,
I’m ok with the quiet,
The truth is going to change everything,

So Lie to me and tell me that it’s gonna be alright,
So Lie to me and tell me that we’ll make it through the night,
I don’t mind if you wait before you tear me apart,
Look me in the eye,
And lie, lie, lie

I know that there’s no turning back,
If we put too much light on this we’ll see through all the cracks,
Let’s stay in the dark one more night,
Don’t want to know,
I’m ok with the silence,
It’s truth that I don’t want to hear,

So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright,
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night,
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart,
Look me in the eye,
And lie, lie, lie

Don’t want to believe in this ending,
Let the camera’s roll on,
Keep pretending,
Tomorrow’s all wrong if you walk away,
Just stay...

So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright,
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night,
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart,
Look me in the eye,
And lie, lie, lie

So lie to me and tell me that we're gonna be okay,
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the day,
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart,
So look me in the eye,
And lie,
Lie,
Lie...

Soooo I posted this cause I think its really pretty and sad =(

another bites the dust

Soooo about the tennis pics,
yeah,
I ain't putting them up here,
since I just don't have the time right now.

Also,
Arsenal lost again today,
woop-de-doo!
they should just give up,
give me Aaron Ramsey,
and little Jack Wilshere too,
since he sooooo cute,
plus since they ain't playing for some reason,
might as well they hang with me.

As of now,
I got 2 assignments left,
which is good,
but then got finals,
which is not good,
but after that,
LONDON baby!
woop!
I should be more excited really,
but I'm just soooo exhausted.

Catch ya'll later peeps!

P.S. Melvin and I rock at pool. Mostly Mel. But yea. We are the shiznit! =)

ack!

Gah! I was gonna put up some pics from the tennis thingy,
but I had many assignments to do,
sooooo I'll get it up as soon as my presentation (which is happening within the hour) is done and over with,
and I'll update this too,
tell ya'll all about my sad life,
HAHA!

this week is hell week,
when it's over,
I'll be THE happiest person ever!

Damn this learning space place in uni is COLD!
I'm freezing my ass off......
Be back later with the pics!
Later taters! =)

change isn't always good

Excuse this post guys. Im in a very pissy mood and stressed like hell.
So just pretend that you never saw this post mkay.
Unless you're one of those overly nosy people who just have to know whats going on.
LAME! but whatever, its a free world.
So go ahead and read.

OK so here's the deal. I love the fact that I can drive and have a car to drive wherever the hell I want to. Its nice not having to depend on my parents to fetch me here and there and all that. But what I hate is being taken advantage of just because I can drive. So most of you probably know that my maid has been taking care of me and my brothers for like ever. All their lives and pretty much almost all of mine. So normally I don't mind driving her to go buy stuff since without them I'd starve to death. But......I freaking hate it when she asks me to go bring her to go buy 4D when I just came back from college. I've been in college since freaking 8 in the morning and I come home exhausted as shit and when I'm asleep, she comes in my room and wakes me up to take her to go buy 4D. I'm tired for freakin' sake! And its not like I can say no. Now everytime I come home from college in the afternoon, I'm pretty much doomed to taking her get her freaking 4D. Its getting ridiculous since she never wins and its just pissing me off. If I say that I can't, she'll go all,"I've taken care of you all these years and all I ask if that you bla bla bla bla." Seriously if this keeps up I'm gonna just tell my mom and let her deal with this. I can't take it much longer. All this is the reason why I rather stay in uni all day and hang out in the study room.

Also, I hate people who crave attention. People who can't stand the thought of having nobody noticing them, or those who can't have people not tell them that they're pretty and just pretty much need someone to compliment them. I HATE these people. People who change who they are just to fit in and do all kinds of stupid ,immature, idiotic things just so they feel accepted and just so they can feel like someone likes them or pays attention to them. To me thats just lame and screams DESPERATE. People who go out all the time and lie to their parents (its OK like once or twice because I do it too but all the time, really?) and does god knows what with god knows who and its just really dumb. Then tell go and tell you all their dumbass problems and just being around them sucks out all your energy. Being around them is just so exhausting. They're like parasites. You're good for them but they're pretty much useless to you and do nothing but hurt you. They're not the same people that I knew when I first met them. I don't even know you they really are anymore. I HATE this new person that they've become. Its disgusting. One day they'll regret it all and I will be sure to go to them and say, "I TOLD YOU SO SUCKERS!" They're ruined now. Damaged goods. They deserve all the bad shit that happened to them. Why? Cause they went looking for it. They asked for it. So there you go. You got what you wanted. Congratulations.

These people are just gonna eventually self-destruct and I hate to have to be the one to pick up the pieces so you know what, it's over. I don't need this kind of drama and shit cause I'm already stressed out enough as it is. So to these people who are currently in my life, you're cut off. You get a free pass. Get out of jail free card. Go find someone else to latch onto and go suck the life out of THEM too. I'm sure they'll appreciate it. Owh and I hate you. So so much. Thanks for nothing.

End of my long ass rant. I feel sooooo much better now.

Disclaimer: I may be pissed but I meant every word I said. So if you think its you I'm talking about, then do something about it. Or not. Makes life easier for me if you don't.

fed-ex!

I just realised that in less than 24 hours,
I get to see Roger Federer in the flesh,
*cue screaming and jumping*
OMFG!
I can't wait!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Also, there is this Malaysia Fottball Tourney whatnot,
thats got players from Liver-fool, Manure and Arsenal,
plus an EPL Select team that is gonna come here and play,
and I wanna go!
at least can see some former Gunners,
who actually won something back in the day,
so tickets here I come!

Owh and I also found out that,
I have a presentation on my birthday,
*sniff sniff*
I don't want to present shit on my birthday!
so unfair......

w00p!

So Novak Djokovic won the season ending Masters Cup in Shanghai!
Woohoo!
*throws confetti*
I is proud =)

^oh lookie Azri! He celebrate just like RVP. Right? Right?

Sadly he has a girlfriend,

who is (also sadly) not me,

damn it!

Also, the twins lost.....

I expected them to lose anyway,

so whatever.....

=(

The only good thing to come out of today,
not a good day....


Novak Djokovic made it to the Masters Cup final! =)


My fav doubles team also made it to the final =)

Now what do these two pics have in common?
if you can't spot it, get your eyes checked.

In other sucky news,
Arsenal lost,
again,
this time to Aston Villa,
at HOME,
idiots,
i have a solution to all their problems,
play my darling Aaron Ramsey,
and cute little Jack Wilshere,
but noooooo,
they're just kids,
MY ASS!
they play better than the first team.

Also went to FLY fm's fly-niversary,
was OK,
but was packed with tweens,
like ewww,
they were all jumping around like morons,
shuffling like spastic kids,
disgusting,
remember people,
shuffling is not a form of dance,
its a form of retardation,
only good thing was that I got to watch Estranged,
other than that,
total bust.

so funneh

OMFG!
this is one of the most funniest videos I've seen,
like ever!

haha it's a bunch of stupid 11 (or 12, who cares!) year old kids's reaction to when David Archuleta lost AI,
I should feel bad for laughing at them,
but I don't.




"how can they vote for that guy!" "he doesn't even shave!"

haha! stupid tweens.

bored = blogging

so right now i'm in college,
hanging around with my laptop,
just watching some shows.

so I watched Gossip Girl 1st,
very the nice,
Aaron is seriously cute,
even though he is not the way I imagined from reading the books,
his dad though is unbelievably hilarious,
freaks me out a bit.

and Chuck and Blair,
I heart them both,
they just need to get together already,
that is a must. LOL.

I hate Jenny,
always have,
always will.

then I watched Heroes,
or should I say Villians,
no seriously,
the title was Villians instead of Heroes,
good episode,
made me understand some stuff better,
but made everything else more twisted,
damn good show,
if you're not watching it,
you suck!

in more important news,
Novak Djokovic (who I love very the much) won his second round robin match yesterday 7-6 0-6 7-5. Yay!
also, Aaron Ramsey (who I too love) did not score last night for Arsenal (who beat Wigan 3-0) but he did great!
Wilshere very the cute,
I just wanna pinch his cheeks,
he is just so small. LOL.
actually all the youngsters damn talented,
its so ridiculous. Haha.
so now i'm going back to bonding with my laptop while waiting for class.
TOODLES! =)

i luffs eeet!

so I just watched the latest episode of Grey's Anatomy,
cried my bloody eyes out.

there was this old couple,
think they were like sweethearts or something,
she got a craniotomy but then she never woke up,
the guy couldn't let her go,
before the surgery she signed a DNR form,
so he kept perforning CPR on her so that her heart would keep beating,
then Bailey and Derek had to take over since it was so long,
damn sad you know.

Owh and Denny was there!
I heart Denny.
Izzie is seriously one strong person for having to go through all that.

Hahn is an idiot as usual.
I really hate her.
She's gonna report Izzie to UNOS cause her patient,
was the patient that was supposed to get Denny's heart,
before Izzie stole it.
She just needs to get laid. LOL.

Sloan tried to hit on Cristina,
damn funny,
new army doctor guy soooo likes Cristina,
but right now he is being an ass,
boo to that!

So if you haven't watched it yet, JUST DO IT! <--- Nike says =)

no freakin' way!

So guess what!

My beloved Arsenal team proved me wrong.
They pwned Man Utd 2-1.
Thanks to Samir Nasri!





^ Showing the boy some luvvv! =)

In other news, Novak Djokovic won his Masters Cup round robin match today, 7-5 6-3. Yay!!

Also, Arsenal next play Wigan is the Carling Cup wednesday morning.
You know what that means?!
Aaron Ramsey gets to play! Woohoo! *claps*

To all Man U fans: cheer up! everybody loses!
Here's a virtual hug for ya'll. *hugs sad man u peeps*
there there. it'll all be alright. or not......later! =)

halo

attention to all my lovely blog readers!

Haha anyway so Arsenal play Man Utd this weekend and i'm pretty sure that Man U will win.
Since Arsenal is playing the quality of football that is equivalent to horse shitting when going down a cement road. (yea i'm not sure if that's a good analogy but who cares!)
Sooooooo if my some sort of miracle that Arsenal DO win (highly unlikely OK), I will do something..... (I don't know what to do!)
Think of something and suggest to me and I might actually do it. (No azri I will not buy you the white mercurial if they win!)

I love you all! =)

declaration

This totally made my day. Here's David Cook singing "Declaration" on SNL! I need to get his new CD damnit! November 18th needs to be here NOW!


EDIT: so the video got deleted from dailymotion. so i decided to take it down from here too. so so so so too bad for you people who didn't get to watch it. you suck! but i still love you! =)

freebies

So guess what!

Arsenal lost to another promoted team. This time it was Stoke City. Yay for Stoke. Before the beginning of the season, everyone predicted that Stoke would be like how Derby was last year and Derby was plain shit. They got 11 points out of 38 games I think it was. Thats just sad. But this year, that ain't gonna happen because for some reason Arsenal decided to pity all those sides that were promoted and go, "Hi! We are Arsenal Football Club. Would you like 3 free points?" Here you go guys. We just don't feel like winning the league this season. Just like last year. And the year before that. And the one before that. And bla bla bla. Wake the fuck up people! Arsenal does NOT lose to promoted teams. Are you shitting me! Geez! Get it together damnit! 3 losses in 11 games is unexceptable! We are better than this! Well......we should be anyway.

Yet after all this failure, I'm still loyal to them. You idiots are lucky I don't ditch you to go support Portsmouth because Tony Adams is now the manager and he got skills man. At least HE won trophies when he was at Arsenal. Take notice kids!

P.S. Chelsea rocks!

shuffle

What do you do when you're bored? Here's a solution, do this shit. I've done it a few times already but the answers are always funny as hell!

You know the drill:

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

Here goes nothing:

1.If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Larger Than Life - Backstreet Boys (O-K.....)

2.How would you describe yourself?
Cure For The Itch - Linkin Park

3.What do you like in a guy?
Innocent - Our Lady Peace (more like the opposite......)

4.How do you feel today?
Just Lose It - Eminem (indeed.....)

5.What is your life's purpose?
25 Minutes - Michael Learns To Rock (huh?)

6.What is your motto?
I've Got You - McFly

7.What do your friends think of you?
Let It Be - Covered by Brooke White

8.What do you think of your parents?
Ride Wit Me - Nelly (um.....i don't think so......)

9.What do you think about very often?
Vertigo - U2

10.What is 2 + 2?
Over My Head (Cable Car) - The Fray

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Cancer - My Chemical Romance (strange.....her zodiac sign is cancer....)

12.What do you think of the person you like?
A Moment Like This - Covered by Leona Lewis (sappy alert!)

13.What is your life story?
You're A God - Vertical Horizon (i don't get it.....)

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Island - The Starting Line (yes i've always wanted to be an island......)

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Lollipop - Mika (not in the kinky way, you dirty minded people!)

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
No Air - Jordin Sparks feat. Chris Brown (no air.....no aaaiiirr......)

17.What will they play at your funeral?
Think of Me - Covered by David Archuleta (yes don't forget me at my own damn funeral!)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Summer Love - Justin Timberlake

19.What is your biggest fear?
Too Serious Too Soon - Gareth Gates

20.What is your biggest secret?
My Hero - Covered by David Cook (he is my hero.....LOL!)

21.What do you think of your friends?
There You'll Be - Faith Hill

22. How you feel about your latest ex?
Only Fooling Myself - Kate Voegele

23. Your outlook on life?
Time After Time - Covered by Quietdrive

24. If you could tell me one thing, what would it be?
Must Get Out - Maroon 5

25. Your personal theme song?
Sway - Covered by The Pussycat Dolls (no comment.....haha)

so now TAG! YOU'RE IT! =)

Fools

OK you know something that I really hate, it's when you like a song but then you start to hate it cause the radio overplays it. Like just now, I was driving back from college, then heard Daughtry's "What About Now" on hitz. But that song is soooooo overplayed its ridiculous. So I didn't want to listen to it so I swtiched to Fly. Guess what song they played, Daughtry's "What About Now." So I switched to Mix and guess what song THEY played, yea BINGO! They started playing the same damn song! So the same song was playing on all three stations. WTF! I used to like that song. Back from when they used it on AI. Then it became annoying and crap because I pratically hear it like 50 bazillion times a day! Play some variety you dimwits! Stop ruining good songs!

Anyway so guess what I just found out. My finals timetable is out and I have an exam on a SATURDAY! A FREAKIN' SATURDAY! What the heck is going on! They can't wait untill Monday? Or whatever? Ugh some people are just grrrr!

So now I'm blogging cause I'm waiting for Heroes and Gossip Girl to finish downloading so I can watch before I go to sleep! Yay! But its so slow that I probably won't be able to watch it until after college later. Noooooo! Plus I got a 2 hours experiment thingy later. Gonna be a rough day. Bleh! I'm so buying O Brien's or Subway to make me feel better after class. Haha.

smileys

For your viewing pleasure! Well, it's mostly for me =)



Ignore the weird cloud looking background. I too find it strange and peculiar.....
Boyband at its best! I love westlife! Mark looks so happy!(even though he's gay. minor detail that! he's still my fav!)

inspiration?

So I think Dr Suess was like a rhyming and story-telling genius. His stories were really really cool even though it's like supposed to be more for kids. But who cares! He is the shit. But some of his quotes are really awesome. Like:

- “You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You’re on your own. And you know what you know. You are the guy who’ll decide where to go.”
- “I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I’ve bought a big bat. I’m all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!”
- “My alphabet starts with this letter called yuzz. It’s the letter I use to spell yuzz-a-matuzz. You’ll be sort of surprised what there is to be found once you go beyond ‘Z’ and start poking around!”
- “Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” (I love this one!)
- “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter won’t mind.”
- “You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” (This mah fav quote!)
- “I’m sorry to say so but, sadly it’s true that bang-ups and hang-ups can happen to you.”

See! Nobody rhymes better that Dr Suess. How cool is he!

just stand up

What up munchkins....

Anyway so next weekend, Moto GP arrives in KL for the Malaysian leg of the race. I want to go for some reason. Probably cause I'm bored and just wanna get out of the house and do something. My mama won't let me go alone so I need people to go with me. So......any takers? Your ticket will be free. I think. Not sure about that. I know its like really cheap. So if it is then it'll be free. See! How desperate am I! Haha. Humor me please.

Owh so yesterday was the Bpsych Freshmen Lunch. Fun stuff. Had lunch and took pics like crazy people. Unfortunately my cam ran out of battery in the middle of it so not many pics. =( Had an awesome time. Love my uni friends. They're so funny.

Hmm what else....I got nothing. So that is all. Later taters. Lovessssss =)

twilight

Edward Cullen is HOT and bloody perfect. Don't bother denying it. Jealousy is unbecoming.



November 27th in Malaysia. Sweet!

threats

AZRI!!!!

Ok so apparently the threat was to expose my secret which is that I love Aaron Ramsey. So what! He damn handsome OK! He will be legal in like a year! No problem one. He in London and I'm here lor. So whatever. I will NOT surrender the voucher to you! You suck! If you all want to see the "threat" then go to Azri's stupid blog la.





See! He so good looking! Haha!

At least I don't love Miley Cyrus. She 15 you know! Who's the pedo now!!!

offline

So I'll be in Kuching within the next 24 hours! Yay! Anyway so I'm not sure if I will blog when I'm there. I might. You know if I'm bored or something. Now I'm just blogging for a while. After I post this then I have to log off and pack up my laptop. Not sure if got time for all that tomorrow so better do now.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidifitri or Happy Eid Al-Fitr to all my lovely friends who are celebrating it. Have fun with your families and give me your duit raya! Please????? Lovessssss =)

fire is my friend

OK so i need to go on a little rant here so if you don't wanna read it then just skip it.

So my MSN status clearly states that I don't want to talk to anyone. Its right there. Read it. So I want to be alone. I'm not in a good mood. Even a monkey can probably realise that. And what do you do? You talk to me. You freakin' talk to me. What are you stupid? Retarded? Slow? You dyslexic? What? I let many things just slip by. I let them go. But not this time. I really really wanted to punch the idiot in the head. Here I am pissed as shit and I specifically say that I rather not be disturbed, and there you go just waltzing in like I'd just pay attention and just make an exemption because it's you? How self-indulgent of you. Then again, I don't expect anything less coming from you. Honestly, I'm not particularly fond of you. Thank the heavens that you don't live anywhere near me. I truly believe my life is better without you in it. Sucks doesn't it? Well FUCK you. So next time, when I say do not disturb, just go with it. Tard!

^Wanna know who the person is? If you feel guilty, then its probably you. Just sayin'. I bet only 1% of ya'll will know anyway.

Anyway so Arsenal lost to Hull. What the FUCK right. The world is so coming to an end. Its ridiculous. Unbelievable. If I were to bet on that game, I probably would've lost a lot of shit. Surreal man. I can't put my head around it yet. I haven't slept since the game cause if I did, then when I wake up, it'd be a reality. I can't accept that just yet. So yeah, it's kinda pathetic but whatever! I need to deal with this OK! Owh and FUCK HULL! Mature of me isn't it?

In about 3 hours, my daddy and brothers leave for Kuching. It's cool but I'm kinda sad since I can't go back yet. I'm going back on monday night with my mama. All because I got a quiz on monday. Whoop-te-do! Life is really getting stupid right now.

Anyway I'm gonna go deal with my issues and maybe sleep for a bit. Maybe not. Whichever. Lovesssss =)

P.S. I really wanna write on my bedroom wall but my parents won't let me. But I reeeeeeeallly wanna do it. So I think I'll just do it. If they don't like it then just paint over the wall. Right???

Pitch A Tent(LMAO!)

I finished my movie review! But I honestly think it sucks. I'm really not happy with it but whatever. Nothing I can do about it now right. So moving on......

I got my LLS assignment groupings today. And I love my group! So nice! Haha. For some reason we got all girls. 7 girls. Hope got no bitch fights. Lol.

So next week no class from wednesday onwards. Even friday no class! One class on tuesday is cancelled but one is not. The one that is not is my psych class. Noooo! I'm gonna miss it! And apparently we're gonna learn about vision or something like that. Guess I'll have to study in Sarawak! Joy! Plus I have biopsych mid-term in a month! I'm not prepared! Ahhhhhh!!!!

Also have to study RM in Kuching. Since the following monday got quiz and I only come back sunday night. Thats just great......

LLS also got assignment due the same monday. Some speech writing thing. Gawd I'm screwed! My holiday is turning into assignment and study galore! Geez these people don't understand the meaning of a break.

Upside! Next week Raya! OMFG! So excited! Can't wait to balik kampung. Haha.

Owh yesterday was the season premiere of Grey's Anatomy and I'm downloading it now but its soooooo slow! Damn it people SEED! Stop being selfish! I need to watch the god damn show!

Guess thats it! Lovessssss!

P.S. To Azri and Diyana, thanks for the Raya cards! I will belanja you guys something when I get back! (and no Azri you cannot have the voucher!)

Gosh! Its Here!

Here is a present for you lovely people! Haha. It's David Cook's new single! Yay! I'm so excited its crazy. I should so be sleeping right now but who needs sleep at a time like this! Here you go:

http://www.popeater.com/music/article/exclusive-david-cook-turns-the-light-on/185647

Tada!! =)

Tick Tock

Well would you look at that! An update!

Anyway so loads of stuff have been happening this weekend in the sporting world. Arsenal are top of the table. Man Utd got fined for getting 7 of their players booked against Chelsea. The US team won the Ryder Cup. Very cool. But one sad thing happened, the last game played at Yankees Stadium was this morning. So now its closed! *sobs* I love the Yankees! Thank god they won.

So classes have been OK. Except my dreaded SBC class. So stupid! Ugh! Owh movie festival! Watched Gladiator. Very awesome movie. Gotta love it. Anyway guess that is all.

Lovesssss =)

P.S. Approximately 1 week till Raya! Yay!

You're Awesome!

So I finished my reflective journals which is good! But still gotta write another one for next week and the week after that and the week after that. Bla bla bla bla bla.

I also have been very very very tired these days. Maybe it's due to lack of sleep or something. I was so tired today that I slept in my psych class. And that was not the first time. I'm telling you, I love that class but I always feel so sleepy during it. I had to force myself to write notes which are already typed out for us just to keep myself awake. WTF!

Tomorrow I have my SBC class. Boo! So not looking forward to that again. I really wish it wasn't compulsory to take it. Then I could drop it on its ass and say 'fuck off!' Just hope I survive it this semester and manage to get a decent grade for it.

Guess that is all. Gotta get some sleep I think. Lovessssss =)

Check Yes!

So right now I'm like completely obsessed with Sarah Dessen books. Why have I not heard of her before this is beyond me. Her writing is AMAZING! Like seriously, I love love love it. So now I plan on reading all of her books. I finished one already, the one entitled Someone Like You. They actually made a movie based on the book, it was called How To Deal which starred Mandy Moore. Here is the book cover:

Now I'm reading The Truth About Forever which is just fantastically fantastic! Its just sooooo good! I'm neglecting my assignments just so I can finish the book. Here is the cover:

So after I finish that I'n not sure which one of her other books I'm gonna read. If any of you have any of her other books, borrow me! Please please please!!! And to those who have no idea who she is until now, i say "get the heck out of that freakin' rock you've been living under!"

Lovessssss =)

ECNALG

GASP! They took down the Archie vid! Why arh? Not like its explicit also. Its like as innocent as a freakin' music video can get. Whatever!

Anyway today was 9/11. Well technically yesterday now. Even though I'm not American and nobody I knew died that day, this day holds a significant meaning to me. I just came back from school when it happened and it was just unbelievable. At first I seriously thought it was a sick joke. It was horrible. Still can't believe it happened, even now. At the time I was in an American International school in Saudi and since people kept saying that the Middle Eastern people were responsible, going to an American school probably wasn't the best thing to do. Alas I did and it was a shitty time. Seriously, everyday the school buses had to be checked for bombs and suspicious things and people kept throwing rocks at the buses. Owh and let me tell you, in Saudi there are loads and loads of rocks. You can find rocks everywhere. You walk for 5 seconds and I guarantee you'll find a rock right next to you. Loads of pissed off people and whatnot. Good thing I left Saudi the following year. Yea so there's my story about 9/11.

Suki leaves in around 8 hours or less. Bye bye Suki! I'll miss you sooooo much! See you in December! Call or msg or get online and leave me a msg somewhere to let me know you made it! Love and Hugs babe! =)

Nooooooo

Behold my 100th post on this beloved blog of mine! And its a stupid post lol.

So for my Career Guidance class(as you people may know by now, most of my classes are retarded), I have to write a reflective journal. Yay! Ugh.....I do not know what to write. Everytime I start it, I get part of it done and then I decide that it sucks and delete the whole thing and start over. It is not supposed to be this hard! Its just like blogging but for some reason I can't do it. But I'm not giving up. Gonna keep at it and write a damn good reflective journal! Hopefully....*crosses fingers*

Anyway today one of my wishes came true. I wished that my SBC lecture would miraculously disappear or something so that I can go home at 10 instead of waiting around till the class starts at 4. And guess what! The lecturer was "ill" so lecture cancelled. Woooooo!!!! No SBC class this week. Bad news, the lecture will need to be replaced which means I gotta suffer through that on any given day the freakin' lecturer picks. Damn it!

Guess that is all I got. Lovesssss =)

P.S. Suki jets off in 2 days!! Friday is D-Day......*sobs*

H.O.T

OMG! The video has David Cook, Michael Phelps, Kobe Byrant, Aaron Peirsol, Ryan Lochte, Jason Lezak, all the other hot swimmers and and.....*drool*

Plus got Shawn Johnson and Nastia Luikin. They so pretty. If I swung both ways, those two....oh yeah! Haha. Overshare!!!

Other Olympians present include Natalie Coughlin, Dara Torres, Katie Hoff(lol I only know the swimmers) and track and field winner Bryan Clay and the water polo team, the gymnasts and many more.

How cool was that!

C.U.T.E

David Archuleta's new video! Haha. Not really feeling it. Its cute and all. Fits the song. Probably more appealing to all you minor kiddies.

The only part I liked was when he played the guitar.

Layers

Layer ONE : On the Outside
Name: Nadia Iskandar
Birth Date: 1 December 1989
Current Status: Single
Eye color: Brown
Hair Color: Passport says brown. I say black.
Righty or Lefty: Righty is the way.
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius

Layer TWO : On the inside
Your Heritage: Malay, Chinese, Dutch
Your Fears: Extreme heights, Swallowing pills, creepy crawlies
Your Weaknesses: Myself
Your Perfect Pizza: Classic pizza(as in none of that sambal or curry or whatever)

Layer THREE : Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: Fuck I need to get up now.
Your Bedtime: Anytime after midnite
Your most missed memory: Times in Jubail.

Layer FOUR : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke is the SHIT!
McDonald's or Burger King: McD! I'm lovin' it!
Single or group dates: Single. Group always kacau lol
Adidas or Nike: Nike all the way baby!
Lipton tea or Nestea: Nestea nicer I think.
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate = love
Cappuccino or coffee: Hate both.

Layer FIVE : Do you
Smoke: Secondhand yes.
Curse: Definitely.

Layer SIX : In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: Yes.
Gone to the mall: Yea.
Been on stage: Oh for sure.
Eaten sushi: Check.
Dyed your hair: Nope.

Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: Nah.
Changed who you were to fit in: Don't think so.

Layer EIGHT
Age you're hoping to be married : Not anytime soon.

Layer NINE: In a Girl/Guy.
Best eye colour: Green/Blue
Best hair colour: Brown
Short or long hair: Messy short and over eyes

Layer TEN: What Were You Doing.
1 minute ago: This thing.
1 hour ago: Printing RM course outline
4.5 hours ago: Dinner.
1 month ago: Chilling.
1 year ago: A levels. Ugh.

Layer ELEVEN : Finish The Sentence
I love: Most of the people around me.
I feel: Content with life.
I hate: My SBC class and lecturer.
I miss: Someone who will not be here in a few weeks time.
I need: That person I miss.

'Plodes!

I have come to the conclusion that my Research Methodology class is going to be the death of me. I'm going to die in that class. Not only is the class 3 hours straight, two of the classes are on public holiday days and so those classes have to be replaced. There goes another couple of hours down the drain.

Anyway! Just now was Suki's farewell thingy. Only 5!!! people from PM 12 showed up. Nice you guys(as in the people who didn't go). I had to leave early cause my brother who tagged along got bored and wants to go home. WTF! Do I look like a driver??(do not answer that) So when I was going to leave, Samuel and all went on this crap rant about something I can't remember. All I heard was bla bla bla bla don't wanna yell here cause got people bla bla bla I will flame your blog and bla bla bla. Guys you can flame my cbox. Go ahead. Won't do much since the profanity filter is on. So be my guest!

Good to see Samuel and Chong Yi. Haven't seen them since Redang and Melvin's farewell. Plus Chong Yi leaving also! *sad face* Samuel leaving next year? Fine like that la. Leave me here. Bloody buggers la you all.

Anyway guess that is all. Tomorrow I will rot in the Auditorium for 3 hours. Yipee! Lovesssss =)

P.S. Suki leaves me in 5 days! *cries*

Irritate

Argh! Its 2 in the morning. Djokovic just lost! *cries*
He lost to Federer 3-6 7-5 5-7 2-6. I so sad now. Love Novak to bits. He so funny. Many people don't get him(*ahem* NY crowd!! Sensitive biatches!). All those people suck ass! Whatever!
As much as I think Fed rocks, Novak is THE best. All-around playa baby! Better luck next time!

Later today is Suki's farewell. Shit that sucks. Means she leaving soon. Ugh! I hate farewells. Super suck fest. At least get to see everyone. Or whoever is going......

Later taters! Lovessssss =)

Roll It

Ugh I just found out today that I can't drop my SBC class. Ahhhh! Guess I'll have to just suffer this semester and hope I don't screw this up. I HATE that class with a passion! Gah!

So went to One World for buka puasa today. Ate at Cinnamon. Damn nice the place. And the food! Everything also got. So it was an awesome dinner! Tomorrow got another buka puasa again. At Sun & Surf in Sunway Resort Hotel. Yay!

Owh and my mama didn't let me drive home just now from OU. Which sucked!

That is all! Lovessssss =)

Suki leaves me countdown: 6 days!!! *sad face*

Afiq also leaves on the 15th. Bugger never tell me he leaving!

Cheeseheads

So tomorrow I have no class! SWEET!


Anyway so I hate my SBC class. The lecturer is just....ugh! She teaches Communication for crying out loud and she can't even speak clearly. WTF!


My Psych class is the best. Though I always get very sleepy during the lecture. Don't know why. But now we learning about genetics which I already know so I don't think I missed much haha.


My Career class is a total free ride. Loads of garbage about finding yourself and whatnot. I have to start another blog just for the class. To capture my thoughts and bla bla bla.


My other two subjects no class yet so meh. My uni life is pretty dull right now.


Owh I saw Ms. Lilian just now. Haha. So cool. Don't think she saw me though.


So I wanna sleep now. Lovesssss.



P.S. I decided to start a countdown to the day Suki dumps me for higher education in the land of crumpets and cucumber sandwiches. So as of today it will be 8 days till she poofs on the plane!


P.P.S. Why is everyone going to England? There is Suki and Chong Yi and Kalpie and Afiq. Even Lowzy going there next year. Ugh. I wanna go also! Haha.

We Todd It!

So I start classes on Tuesday. Got my schedule today and let me tell you, I think its retarded. But in a good way! Well not really.......

I got only one class on Monday that is 3 hours. Smack right in the middle of the day. Doesn't that just sound like fun.

Tuesday is pretty normal. Got classes back to back. 4 hours of crap. Then home!

Wednesday is shit day. Got one class from 8 till 10 then one from 4 till 6. What am I supposed to do in the meantime? Sleep? Ugh. That is gonna suck.

Thursday got one class only. From 12 till 1:30. Guess thats fine. Friday as well. Only one class. But the class is 3 hours long. Talk about a snooze fest.

But got tutorials here and there so gotta figure out which one of those to attend. Seriously. How nice of them to offer the same thing at 4 different times and days. Though for me it might give me a huge headache trying to decide. But first two weeks got NO tutorials so yeah. My schedule is retarded.

Owh and I'm exempted from LAN classes. Thank the heavens that I don't ever have to go through that crap again!

Randomness.....

I was bored. So when to this site--> http://www.paulsadowski.com/BirthData.asp

Loads of bday facts for me. Check it:

1 December 1989
Your date of conception was on or about 10 March 1989 which was a Friday.
You were born on a Friday under the astrological sign Sagittarius.
Your Life path number is 4.
Your fortune cookie reads: Skill comes from diligence.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 6 & 7.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 3, 5 & 9.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447861.5.
The golden number for 1989 is 14.
The epact number for 1989 is 22.
The year 1989 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/6/1989 and ending 1/26/1990.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Snake.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Owl; your plant is Mistletoe.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Menchir, the second month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 3 Kislev 5750.Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 4 Kislev 5750.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.16.10.17 which is12 baktun 18 katun 16 tun 10 uinal 17 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Friday, 2 Jumadiyu'l-Avval 1410 (1410-5-2).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 March 1989.

The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 April 1989.

The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 8 February 1989.

The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 May 1989.

The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 21 May 1989.

The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 30 September 1989.

The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 20 April 1989.

The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 7 February 1989.


As of 8/28/2008 1:58:02 PM EDT

You are 18 years old.
You are 224 months old.
You are 978 weeks old.
You are 6,845 days old.
You are 164,293 hours old.
You are 9,857,638 minutes old.
You are 591,458,282 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:
Brad Delson (1977)
Julie Condra (1970)
Bette Midler (1945)
John Densmore (1944)
Richard Pryor (1940)
Lee Trevino (1939)
Woody Allen (1935)
Lou Rawls (1933)
Mary Martin (1913)
Cyril Ritchard (1897)

Top songs of 1989
Another Day In Paradise by Phil Collins
Miss You Much by Janet Jackson
Straight Up by Paula Abdul
Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx
Lost In Your Eyes by Debbie Gibson
Like a Prayer by Madonna
We Didn't Start the Fire by Billy Joel
Two Hearts by Phil Collins
When I See You Smile by Bad English
Blame It On the Rain by Milli Vanilli

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.67906066536204 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Thursday.
Your lucky number is 3.
Your ruling planet(s) is Jupiter & Neptune.
Your lucky dates are 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th.
Your opposition sign is Gemini.
Your opposition number(s) is 5.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 95 days till your next birthday on which your cake will have 19 candles.
Those 19 candles produce 19 BTUs,or 4,788 calories of heat (that's only 4.7880 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.17 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1989 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1989 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1989 in the US there were 2,404,000 marriages (9.7%) and 1,163,000 divorces (4.7%)
In 1989 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.
In 1989 the population of Australia was approximately 16,936,723.
In 1989 there were approximately 250,853 births in Australia.
In 1989 in Australia there were approximately 117,176 marriages and 41,383 divorces.
In 1989 in Australia there were approximately 124,232 deaths.

Your birthstone is Blue Zircon -->The Mystical properties of Blue Zircon
Zircon helps one be more at peace with oneself. Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Blue Topaz, Ruby, Lapis Lazuli

Your birth tree is
Ash Tree, the Ambition

Uncommonly attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with its fate, can be egoistic, very reliable and trustworthy, faithful and prudent lover, sometimes brains rule over heart, but takes partnership very serious.

There are 119 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 132 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were born was waxing crescent.


GOTTA SAY THIS........the last "celebrity" born on the same day as me was in 1977. WTF! C'mon people! December 1st is the best! Actually December babies rock in general. We were all born to rule the world. Just watch. December babies FTW!

And the songs are crap. Except for a few. Like Richard Marx and Madonna maybe.

Bday shoutout!

So shoutout to Azri for turning 19 today!
Have an awesome bday dude! =)
Enjoy it. Party it up or whatever.
Tell people to give you loads of pressies and then give them to me! Haha.
Lots of Love and Hugs from me and Kalpie and Wendy to you! WoohooO!

Formality Almost?

Ahh I'm blogging cause I'm bored and sleepy but I can't sleep. Insomnia bloody stinks!

So not much has been going on. Went out to eat a lot. Watched loads of Olympic stuff. Just watched the closing ceremony a few hours back. London 2012 here I come! Woo!

Watched the new James McAvoy movie "Penelope" and it was nice. James McAvoy....*swoon* *drool*

Anyway I really wanna watch the movie Becoming Jane but it takes freakin' forever to download and I can't find it anywhere so if anyone has the movie, borrow to me please!

Can't think of anything else. Ugh so guess that is it! Lovesssss =)

Smokin'!

You know how most people who want to get sponsored wanna be sponsored by Nike or Adidas or Reebok or whatever. I am one of those people. Nike FTW! As cool as that may be, I've decided I wanna be sponsored by Speedo! Why? Check it:

*points above* Now those are some good lookin' people. Now I gotta say something. Why the hell was I not invited to that? Huh? Huh? If that wasn't enough to convince ya'll that Speedo is the way to go, check this:

<---- Need I say more? Anyway that is all. Gotta go back to reality. Damn pics are a distraction.....

Lovessssss =)

Secrets Are For Losers!

Joel McHale is a bitch. But I love him!



Haha. Poor Lauren Conrad.

Unbelievable? Believe It!

So I'm not a huge believer in the whole 'one door closes and another one opens' thing. But here's something that sorta restored my belief in that. This is from Regie Hamm's blog. He is the guy who wrote the song Time Of My Life, the song David Cook sang when he won AI. This song was also played numerous times during the Beijing Olympic games and used as one of the songs on So You Think You Can Dance in the US. (I suggest you people have tissues handy. I cried reading this. Yes I'm not ashamed to admit it!) Here you go:

It was late March of 2003 and my wife and I were sitting in a tourist bus with three other families on a crowded street in Beijing, China. We had all just climbed the Great Wall together and had stopped to buy hats and t-shirts from street vendors on our return back into the city. Yolanda (my wife) and I saw these cheesy little hats that said "Beijing Olympics 2008". We bought them and immediately added them to our fashion ensemble, along with our cargo pants, t-shirts and running shoes. The hats, and the inscriptions on them, seemed insignificant at the time. They did prove to be good conversation pieces, however. Yolanda and I discussed the '08 Olympics with the other families like us, awaiting eight-month-old daughters, on the bus ride back to the hotel.

This was exactly one week before we met our precious Isabella, Xin Meng (which means "new dreams" in Chinese). We were all doing the simple math that would tell us how old our daughters would be in 2008. We all agreed that it would be such a wonderful experience to bring them back for the games and introduce the little girls to the land of their birth. We speculated on whether they would be old enough to understand. We wondered about the in-between years and how we would all be different. Would we have other children? Would our daughters even care about China? Would we all be able to meet again and reminisce about our experiences together? It was indeed an interesting ride back to the hotel and I distinctly remember Yolanda and I deciding then and there that we would make it a point to be at the games in Beijing in '08 with Isabella.

At the time, it wasn't a stretch to believe we would be able to do it. In fact, it wasn't even something we gave a second thought to. If we wanted to go to China we just did it. If we wanted to go anywhere, back then, we just did it. Four days prior to climbing the Great Wall and purchasing tourists hats, I had stood in a record store on Santa Monica boulevard and picked my debut release "American Dreams" out of it's own sleeve in "H" section. My single "Babies" was number 15 on the Adult Contemporary pop chart (with a bullet, as they say) and I was told at my record release party two days prior to that, that I would be touring extensively upon my return from China - "line up a nanny", are the exact words my agent used, "you're going to be gone a lot". I was ready for it. I felt as though I could do no wrong and was living the part I was born to play.

I had gone from a meteoric career in Christian music, logging twenty one number 1 hits in seven years, Grammy and Dove nominations and walls full of platinum, to landing a record deal with Universal South records as a solo artist. My wife had been a very successful promoter in the radio world as well. She was responsible for helping launch some of the biggest names in country music. We were a jet setting, highly paid, well groomed couple who understood success and how to achieve it. We had, however, begun to feel empty in our lives and after learning that we couldn't produce children of our own, decided to go to China and bring home a little girl. That decision would change everything.

One week after the purchase of our "Beijing Olympics 2008" hats, a little girl with a high fever and and a rare genetic disorder was placed in our arms in a hotel in Nan Chung, China. She was the most beautiful thing I'd ever set my eyes on to that point in my life, and she instantly turned me into a different man. The very second she was in my arms, I couldn't bring myself to think about chart positions or tours or CD sales or anything remotely associated with my silly music career. When her sweaty, feverish, quivering little body was next to mine I was from that moment on ...Isabella's daddy. Everything else was a footnote.

The weeks in China, after adopting Isabella, were harrowing, sleep deprived, shocking, eye opening and life altering. Isabella was hospitalized twice in three days. She wouldn't sleep more than an hour at a time. She couldn't hold her head up. Wouldn't eat and didn't smile until the seventh day when I playfully tossed her in the air and she giggled. From that moment on, making her smile became my life's quest.

After two weeks in China, a fourteen-hour flight to LA, a four hour flight to Nashville, and a twenty minute car ride to our Franklin home, we thought we might be out of the woods with Isabella's illnesses. Not so. The next weeks, months and years sent us into turmoil, confusion, heartbreak and financial ruin. Isabella was different and no one could tell us why. We sold our house on five stunning acres and moved into a ranch house that would accommodate a little girl who "might never walk". I stopped touring and lost my record deal by September of 2003. In the haze of it all we were also informed that Isabella would not be covered under our private insurance plan due to her "pre-existing condition" that was, until July of 2007, undiagnosed. So my wife, who had been a highly paid executive with an expense account, took a job at a call center for a company that would provide group insurance coverage for the family. I became a housedad.

With no one interested in signing me to a record label or booking me for shows or using me to produce other artists, I limped along in the songwriting world anonymously for the next several years. I would get up at 5 or 6 in the morning, make Isabella's breakfast, clean her up, then sit her in a high chair next to the piano and write songs while she smiled at me. It was wonderful and terrible at the same time. Isabella was severely delayed with sleep disorders, seizures and no speech. She required full time attention and had to be monitored almost 24 hours a day. Yolanda and I became shift work care givers. Many nights after she would come home from work, we would kiss and I would head out to a club to play for the rest of the night for tips or door money ...or nothing. The years passed and we continued to struggle with Isabella. My career continued to slide into oblivion and my wife became more and more acutely exhausted. In late 2006, we adopted a second child. A glorious baby boy named Gabriel. For all the problems Isabella was born with, Gabe was born perfect and whole and was a Godsend. Our family was complete and we could begin to see the clouds over us lift. The joy of another life in our home awakened us from a five year stupor and made me begin to re-evaluate everything that had happened to us to that point. What constitutes a happy life? What is real success? In short ...what's truly important?

In April of '08, with no publishing deal, no record deal and no career left to speak of, my wife suggested that I try and write a finale song for the American Idol song contest. My friend Scott Krippayne had won it the year before and Yolanda told me "Scott did it last year, why couldn't you do it this year? Please try it - you have nothing to lose". I reluctantly agreed, then immediately thought of the line "taste every moment and live it out loud". That was a Thursday. I went into my office the following Monday and worked through what a "moment" song would sound and feel like. I couldn't bring myself to write about conquest and achievement. None of that rang true for me anymore. I had been living a cautionary tale of hanging your hopes and dreams on material success for the past five years. All I could think of was the need to give in to love, let bitterness burn and embrace the moments we have and people we love. I thought about my shattered career and the words "holding on to things that vanished into the air left me in pieces" washed over me and I briefly felt the sting of it all again. Then I thought about my wife and my daughter and my son and how they were truly all I needed. The words "all that I needed was there all along, within my reach, as close as the beat of my heart" came rolling off my tongue and I knew that it was the truth. I finished the song in five hours. Recorded and mixed it over the next three days and turned it in to the contest website (along with my ten dollar entry fee) the day of the deadline. Three days later, I was notified that my song "may" be in the top twenty. Two days later ...it was. Several weeks later, I was notified that I'd actually won the contest. A week after that, David Cook became the 2008 American Idol winner and performed my song in front of 30 million people. Two and a half months later, it had been downloaded over seven hundred thousand times, was number 3 on the pop AC chart, number 7 on the hot AC chart and had been performed live on TV a dozen times and been used in several TV production pieces. You almost can't ask for more out of a song than that. But then ...

On the eight day of the eight month of the eighth year of the new millennium, the opening ceremony of the 2008 Olympic games took place in Beijing, China. I was working in my office and about to finish up and go to bed, when my wife burst through the door in her pajamas. "Get up here - you gotta see this!", she said frantically. I ran upstairs just in time to see the ceremony close to the very words I had written in my office three months earlier. As David Cook sang line after line, my wife and I stood spellbound, watching little Chinese girls walk up and down the same streets we had so casually strolled five years earlier. They looked like our beautiful daughter sleeping in the next room. My wife, needing to be asleep so she could be at her job at five thirty the next morning, was in tears and visibly shaken by the inexplicable nature of it all. All I could do was stare and try to get a handle on the moment. I couldn't then and still can't. We weren't in Beijing with the other three families. Our daughter doesn't know she's chinese and can't tell us how she feels about her birthplace. Barring a medical miracle, she never will. As a family, we were tied to our special circumstances and a trip to China would be completely out of the question for several reasons. But our story - our journey - our personal revelation was there and speaking to the entire world. The weight of it still gives me chills.

I brought a Chinese baby home who's severe special needs condition sent my career and our life as a family into a tailspin. The years of learning and crying and hurting and losing had brought us to the point of letting go of everything. That point had spawned a song that went into the world and did what we could not ...attend the 2008 Olympic games in China. Moments like that can only be engineered by something higher than ourselves. If my life had continued on it's "perfect" course, I'm quite certain I would've never experienced 8/8/08 in that profound of a way. Any plan I could've developed would never have been as beautiful and unexpected. This one was divine. Sometimes you have to lose everything to gain perspective. You can't see the circle while you're making it. Only at certain, special moments can you pull back and see the reasons for it all. China. Babies. Songs. Music. Dreams. Success. Happiness. They all mean different things to me now. They are all part of a grand mosaic that is in a constant state of immaculate design.

-Regie Hamm

Kinda makes you think about your own life doesn't it? Wow.

Immortality Says Hi!

So today I witnessed history in the making. Michael Phelps won his 8th gold medal at the Beijing Olympics surpassing Mark Spitz's record of 7 golds at an Olympic. So immortality has been achieved. Really doubt anyone is EVER gonna beat Phelp's record. But I hope I'm still alive if that ever happens. Anyway congratulations to Michael Phelps. Hes worked hard for this so he deserves it alright. Thanks for making me wake up at 10 every morning to watch you swim. Haha. As if hes ever gonna read this. But you never know. A girl can dream. Owh and the man himself quoted this,

"If you dream as high as you can, nothing is impossible." (thats not the exact quote but he said something along those lines. I just can't remember the exact one right now. If I find out I'll edit it.)

So that quote kinda reminded me of the song "Dream Big" where the lyrics say,

Cause if you don't dream big, whats the use in dreaming
If you don't have faith, theres nothing worth believing
It takes wild hope to make the stars worth reaching for
So reach out for something more

Totally true. So dream guys. Make your dreams happen. The impossible may not be as impossible as you think. Does that make sense?

Right so that is all. Lovessssss =)

Destiny Is Real!

I present to you people THE greatest swim final I've ever seen! The 100m Butterfly finals at the Beijing Olympics. Michael Phelps is out of this world. I downloaded this and its the coverage from BBC in Britain so ignore the interview with the girl in the middle of the video. And when Phelps in swimming to get out of the pool at the end, his face like damn cute(sorry I just had to add that). Haha. Close race. Really really close. This video is dedicated to my lovely Suki. Why? Cause she deserves it! Check it:

Anyway so Lee Chong Wei didn't manage to win the gold medal. He lost to Lin(I'm so cool. Look at me!)Dan 21-12 21-8. Total demolision job but I'm still glad that we came back with a medal. Thats better than nothing at all. Good job Chong Wei! Way to make the country proud! Better luck next time. Plus he get RM 300 000 from the government. Nice. Take it! Make the government poor! They deserve it!

Cash = Gold!

Holy Shit! You know I never quite believed that people would screw other people just for more money. Well today I was proven wrong. You know the 6th Harry Potter movie is supposed to be released in November right. WRONG! Those idiots from Warner Bros. decided to move the release date to summer of 2009! WTF! WTF! Why? Here's the quote from the article:

"The move was made to take advantage of an open weekend in Hollywood's busy summer season."

Owh really? Who cares! I want to see it in November! Not in the summer! Bloody people who only care about money. Its a Harry Potter movie. Doesn't matter when it comes out. People are still gonna go watch it. Gah I'm so pissed. Speaking of being pissed,

Arsenal's opening match just ended. Won 1-0. Not bad for an opening fixture. Most important was the win. But some people are just crappy! Gallas, for example, is a douche. People put faith in him to be the captain and he treats his team-mates like shit. They're better than you damn it! Geez! Respect man! Anyway tomorrow just happens to be his bithday so err....happy birthday dude! Also Eboue is an idiot. I still don't know why after all his stupid perfomances hes still there playing and getting stupider by the minute. Nasri got his debut goal! Good on him! The rest of the team were average at best. Denilson, Nasri, Sagna and Clichy the only exceptions. Van Persie was pretty good too coming off the bench.

Now to the Olympics! Michael Phelps won his 7th gold medal today! It was by far the hardest for him. He beat the silver medalist by .01 second! Its destiny I say. Hes meant to win the gold. Plus this is the first race in which he did not set a world record. Doesn't matter in the end right. So hes got one more event and one more gold to collect.

Novak Djokovic won the bronze medal today. He beat James Blake in straight sets 6-3 7-6. Good for him! At least he got a medal! He sure as hell deserves it.

In Athletics, Tyson Gay got fifth in his semifinal heat. So that means he did not qualify for the finals. Looks like the final of the 100m will be between Usian Bolt Asafa Powell.

ETA: Usian Bolt wins the 100m with a new world record of 9.69 seconds! Awesome stuff! Powell got 5th I think. So sad.......

I'll stop now. Haha. Lovessssss =)

Fingertips

Novak Djokovic lost! AHHHHHH!!!! He lost his semifinal match to Rafael(I have huge biceps)Nadal 4-6 6-1 4-6. Grrrr so pissed. Hopefully he can at least win the bronze medal match.

So Lee Chong Wei made it to the gold medal match! Yay! At least Malaysia get a medal.

Watched some gymnastics today. In the Women All-Around finals, Nastia Luikin of the USA won the gold. Damn close. Her floor routine was only a fraction better than her team-mate and silver medalist Shawn Johnson(I wanted her to win). She so pretty. Actually they both pretty.

More swimming as well. Ryan Lochte won the 200m backstroke. So happy for him! Hes won so many silvers in his life(well technically thats his fault. I mean if you swim in the same events as Phelps and Peirsol, you dont really have much of a chance to begin with right). Good to see him finally win the gold. Yay to him! Michael Phelps won his 6th gold medal and set his 6th world record today. Now got 2 more left to go. But I think this last 2 are gonna be his hardest. Now really convinced that he can win them. We'll see I guess.

Technically its now Saturday, meaning today is BPL opening weekend! Ahhhhhh! Arsenal play the earliest. Damn excited. Hope they win!

That is all! Go Malaysia! Lovessssss =)

Cross Your Mind

So today Michael Phelps got no final. So very boring. No big action. But still got some pretty good stuff going on. Ryan Lochte made it to the 200m backstroke finals along with Aaron Piersol. They both own the world record! Cool right. Then Alain Bernard won the 100m freestyle. The guy looks like a giant. Damn huge. He beat Eamon Sullivan(which was the guy I wanted to win)and Jason Lezak(my hero)got third along with some guy from Brazil. Two people getting third. Very cool.

Malaysia's hope for a medal is now down to one person only. All up to Lee Chong Wei(what a surprise!). Hes into the semis now where he faces either Bao Chunlai or Lee Hyun-il. They both play later today.

Owh and I just realised that this weekend is EPL weekend! AHHHHHHH! This weekend football start again. Yay! No more boring weekend. Damn good. So excited. Arsenal playing West Brom I think. Hehe. Weeeee.

On the music front, remember David Archuleta? The small kid from AI. Yea. His single "Crush" is now #1 on iTunes. Good for him! Haha.

Yea OK that is all. Lovessssss =)